Be the Good

I don't know about you, but for me, it has been a long week. From the Dallas shootings and the Nice, France terrorist attack, and all the negativity in between, I've just about had it. I have sat at my desk at work and cried this week, feeling utterly helpless and hopeless. I've found that nearly all of my communication with others this week has been negative. Last night I realized as I was talking to my friend that all I had done during the conversation was complain and talk about negative things. I stopped, and tried to come up with some positive things going on right now but at the moment, I had a hard time doing it. I've surround by darkness this week and my guess is I'm not the only one having a hard time finding sunshine right now. 

But, today is a new day and a new opportunity for me to find a glimmer of light in the gray that surrounds me. There are good people. There are good things happening. There are people out there doing all they can to make this world a better place, one small act of kindness at a time. Here's an example. 

Not long ago, I was at a 7/11 getting gas. I was irritated because I was in a hurry to get somewhere and the gas pump wouldn't accept my card. So, I stormed inside to pre-pay at the register. There were two people in front of me, and the one at the register was taking forever. I think I almost started tapping my foot in impatience like they do in cartoons. Finally, I started listening to what the man was saying to the cashier. He said, "Can I give you ten dollars to buy other people's drinks when they come in? I just want to try and make someone's day better because they get a free drink." Right then and there, I started crying. The lady in front of me saw me trying to subtly wipe away those tears and gave me a funny look. I was completely overwhelmed by the simple act that this man had done. He didn't look like he had a lot of money, but there he was being thoughtful in the smallest way and trying to make other people's day better. And here I was, wrapped up in my own selfish frustration. 

I have started to realize that I am surrounded by countless good acts like that every day. My life isn't just a compilation of negativity and horrible world events. There are beautiful, positive things happening all around me. And, more importantly, I can choose to be one of those positive things. I can be a little bit of light in someone's day. Though I am just one girl living in Provo, Utah, I can influence those around me for good. I can't stop all of the horrendous things happening in the world. I can't stop terrorist attacks. I can't stop racism. I can't create world peace. But I can be the light in someone's day. It might be hard to see the good, but I am learning that instead I can be the good.